From out of the shadow, a writer emerges

It’s very difficult to put into words what the process was that brought me to writing at this time in my life. But, I’ll try. Back in the mid-2000’s, I had turned fifty. I was, I guess in a state of PTSD from a medical brush with death. I survived a deep vein thrombosis and pulmonary embolism in 2003. I was depressed and overweight, sitting around seriously on the bottom. In that period of time I don’t know how I did it, but I was able to raise my daughter. Looking back, it seems to me there was a great meeting, a monumental synchronicity of events that began to bring my life together.

Back in those early days of self-discovery, the first books I read were The Power of Intention by Wayne Dyer, and You Can Heal Your Life, by Louise Hay. Then, I took the suggestion from Julia Cameron’s The Artist’s Way to write three pages in a journal each day for self-examination. The journaling became coupled with reading author-gurus like Wayne Dyer, Louise Hay, Abraham/Hicks. Most importantly, I had frequent talks – five days a week still – over the phone with my sister Annette who lives in Northern California, who happens to be a trained spiritual counselor. Over a two year period I came to see more of a purpose or intention regarding my life.

With success and purpose slowly building inside me, the inspired time suddenly manifested. That’s when the idea for a love story came to me through my journaling. That was in 2009. Through all the self-study and learning how to switch from a self-punisher to a self-soother and advocate with a focus on a creative outlet, I weaned off all the anti-depressants I had been taking for years. I no longer needed the psychotropics. I have not taken one milligram of an antidepressant or anti-anxiety for many years now. I’ve learned, and am still learning, I have a choice as to how I feel or think about something that is an obstacle or block to happiness.

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